the day when i was born........

Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to Lelina Rumi....
Happy birthday to me!!!!
Being a birthday girl is a good time to tell you guys a lil' bit bout me
Well, I was born on this day early morning 27 years ago
My mom said,those who was born in the morning will have very 'cool' character..
Hmh...I don't think I am cool,was I?
Lelina was a randomise name choose by my mom herself. Actually, it's Lina only but one of my cousin who live next door having the same name so my mom add 'Le' to make it sound different.
Rumi was name after my late great grandmother. She adopted my late grandmother from her very own sister because she doesn't have any child.
I don't have any picture of her but I was told that she was a very beautiful lady..unlike me. The only character that I have from her is TAKUT HANTU ahahahahha
She was very well known among the family because of that! and so do I!! hahahaha
Anyway, I was born in my old longhouse in Kedap Saratok. It's not because of no hospital.
It's a very long and personal story behind that..
My mom met my dad in Bintulu when she was working there.
She decided to balik kampung 3 months before delivery and left my dad there so he can continue his study. My dad is a lot more younger than my mom. He was still studying when he finally choose to be her husband.. but my mom told him to continue since he is a smart student despite his playboy character.
During her stay in kampung,she faced a lot, lot of controversy..
Got back there by herself, no husband and pregnant, villagers told her not to have regular checking in clinic!! Pity her!!! Damn all the villagers who told her that!! What a lie!!!
There was no such thing!! It's not so strict like nowadays!
That was why she didn't delivered in hospital and I don't have all the vaccinations that was required for all children.
Few months after I was born, she received a letter from her younger and the only sister(mak bintulu), told her that my dad was caught with another woman and was forced to marry that pregnant woman although she was pregnant before my dad met her!! Serve him rite!!
Pity my mom..she have to raise me all by herself..and that is why my IC has a different birth date..my mom waited for a year to see him and ask for his IC in order to register my birth.
Actually it can be done earlier,and my birth cert. will be red in color but my mom choose to wait for my dad so in the future it's easy for me to do my IC.
Well, that's a lil bit story of my precious mom and my playboy dad.
Until now, my mom is still single. She refused to marry coz she scared her husband to be doesn't want me after they have their own child. She SACRIFICED HER LIFE for me..
Even if I give her this whole world, I will never pay back to what she have done to me.
Do you guys have any idea of how she go through all this?!
She lost lot of blood after delivery and there was very limited type O blood back then. Lucky my step grandfather have the same type and donate to her.
My mom spent a month in the hospital and I have to survive without breastfeeding for a month!
And I myself was very choosy!!
Before she fully recovered, she have to work in order to feed me and she have to bring me along coz no one is available to babysit. She spent 2 years in kampung and finally we got back to bintulu to seek for a better living.
Raised as an only child made me became very selfish although I spent my childhood with my cousins. Till now, that character stick to me like a gum!
I have to learn from others to give and take. I am very countable at times. It's what every Librans have I guess...fair and square!! You give me RM1 and I will give you the same amount in return! Not less, not more than that either!
After I learned what my dad did to my mom doesn't make me scared to men.
I started to fall in love when I was 12 years old..hahaha and of course it's only cinta monyet!
I only realize of real love when I dated this one guy who were 2 years younger than me.
Well, we can't make it real because we have different religion and he have more admirers who was more beautiful of course and we decided to be just friend then.. I still have feeling for him actually until I met one guy.
This 'good boy' seems sooooo into me!! Not my type really..haha
I prefer having somebody who is not too quiet..
Seriously, I don't know he was after me, until he finally confessed!!
I don't really fall for him in the first place but since he seems so sincere, I don't dare to refuse..
I'm not that type actually. I will honestly tell man to back off if I really don't want them.
This one was different..could it be magnet?..hmh...
We tried to survive for 4 and a half years..and that's it!!
I quit!! I don't have the courage to wait for him any longer.
I gave him 4 and a half years to prove that he really love me.
I don't tell him to choose me or his family. I was just want to be a part of his family.
What can I do if his family doesn't want me?! The one who should convince them was him!!
I am nobody!! All I can do is wait..
And I'm not so stupid who will wait until the day I die!!
I refused all proposal from all good men because I hope he will stand for me..
Well, it's me..and only me who stand by myself..
My family is not rich but my mom brought me with all her life,her dignity and full of honour to become of what I am now!!
I'm not going to destroy it just because of him!!
Separation seems to be the only way..and it's not easy..it's really not easy..
The future for me was with him.. All the decision is made based on both of us..
Can you imagine how I have to renew it all after the separation?!!
Sometimes I feel like I wanna get back to him so I don't have to decide by myself and live like what we have plan together..
But I know I have to be strong..
I can make it without him..
My mom went through a lot more tougher situation and she can make it!!
So why not me?..He just a boyfriend!! My mom lost her husband..yet she still can breath!!
I should be thankful to realize that early..
And it's not so soon until I found my soul-mate..
4 years younger is not a problem,rite?..hahaha
It might so early for me to meet his family after few months dating but I like it that way.
I hate of being hide all this while with the previous one.
He is a 'bad boy' kinda guy..it's my type..hahahhaa
His sincerity made me choose him out of all..
We don't really plan to settle down so fast actually but loving each other so much, how can we resist?!!hehehehe
I am very thankful to him for all of this..being part of his family is really joyful..
I can call his parents like my own..and finally I have sister and brothers who is not blood related..
It mean so much to me..
I want nothing else..this is all I need..
Can I have all of this forever?...
Hmh....more like a sesi meluah perasaan..hehehe
Thank you Tagged!! I will not meet this wonderful guy because of 'you' hahaha
I think that's enough for now.. I will write more some other time..
Happy birthday to me once again!!
And up there is a few old pic for the readers..thank you for reading..